Seventy-nine days= 11 weeks, 2 days.. u noe wad? seriuosly, u can sae that i'm crazy ba.. ppl keep asking me to give up but i noe i can't n i won't.. u should noe how important u really meant to me ba.. i don noe y everything turns out this way.. but this is not wad i wanted it to be de.. i'm serious.. it never once come across to me that we will end up like this.. to me, u r my everything.. really everything.. jus one word from u, i can really jus give up everything jus for u.. do u noe? my love for u was never once fake.. even thou that time, infront of u, i keep saying this guy veri handsome that guy veri hot, i didn't mean it.. all i wan is to see ur reaction.. it's jus purely that.. i had no other intention to break off wif u or wad.. to me, u r the most handsome guy le.. i won't wan other guy cos u r the one one i love.. the love for u only increases everyday but never once fade.. keep looking back at the message that u send to me using ur father phone when u were in taiwan.. all those messages were so sweet.. but everything changes after u came back.. u misunderstood my tweets.. marry me mary, was a korean drama i was watching that time.. junsu, was a guy in the korean band.. i sae he was handsome n cute cos his nickname given by ppl was damn funny.. u noe? all this while, u didn't noe all this n were jus misunderstanding me.. that time when u held my hands when u send me home to be ur gf again, actually, i ald forgive u.. i jus wanted to see how u ask.. prove? i do need it at all.. all i need is jus u being by my side n never leave me alone.. everytime quarrel wif u, i will regret de.. including ignoring u.. always, always.. is cos i don clarify it wif u that's y it become like this.. n always refuse to hear my reasonings before u decide anything.. everytime, once u angry, u will always wan a break up.. but do u noe it hurts a lot? everytime u said it, my heart bleed.. u don noe right? cos i always pretend that i didn't care at all.. this is me.. i always like to pretend that i am brave but in the actual fact, i'm not.. i'm jus a timid girl who is lost in relationship.. a girl who is crazily in love wif a guy called dion lee wei jie.. n she can't leave le.. he's her everything.. that's the real me.. i'm dependent on u.. way too much le.. cos u were always there for me.. i'm a girl who can be veri happy whenever a small thing is done by u cos it touches me a lot.. jus a sms from u can really cheers me up whenever i'm unhappy.. being wif u, i can forget everything that i'm not happy wif.. if u realised.. every time, i'm unhappy, jus a small action from u can really make me forget it.. if i really don love u or wanted other guy, i won't give u my first kiss.. i won't.. cos i noe i really love u.. really really love u.. i really wanted to be wif u forever.. being wif u seems like a magical to me.. cos i feel like i'm a princess being adore n loved by a prince.. wad's looks to? it doesn't mean anything at all.. cos loving someone doesn't care about the looks but the feel.. i only noe, i love u.. really really love u.. dion, don't u get it? i jus wan that trust from u.. i don need guys wif looks or wad, all i need is u, dion lee wei jie, to be by my side.. forever n ever n ever.. i really can't give u up de.. really can't.. whenever i see a girl beside u, smiling at u, i will feel damn jealous.. u should noe de.. do u noe? i really misses u a lot.. that time we promised le.. after ur o, u will spend more time wif me de.. up till now, i still haven go before ur hse lor.. wanted to see how it looks like, wad type of environment u lived in.. wanted to noe more about u.. i don wan u to always keep being in between wif me n ur friends.. i wanted them to accept me as ur gf.. but always, they hated me a lot.. that's y always when u ask me to go wif u n ur friends, i always refuse cos i don wan to make life difficult for u, cos i noe they hated the sight of me.. i don hate ur friends de but since they hate me, i cannot do anything.. i noe u don quite like dwight that's y after that i don dare ask u out when wif jocelyn they all le.. i told u before le, i always like that cos i'm really not used to goin out wif guy alone.. u really is my first one.. the first guy that i went out alone wif, first guy that i talk on phone wif till that late, first guy that as a friends is so nice to me n i'm willing to tell u everything, first guy that we end up as a lover.. to me, u r jus that special.. if u don noe all this, i will tell u now.. this is wad has been hiding inside my heart for veri long.. i always hated to see u unhappy so in order for u to be happy, i'm willing to sacrifice everything.. everytime i see u unhappy, i always hav the urge to touch ur face n ask u to smile n make u smile but i always don hav the courage to do so.. i'm afraid that u won't like it.. u really r my first, that's y there's a lot of things i really don noe.. the only thing i noe is, i really love u a lot.. whenever u r angry n said those nasty things to me, it hurts a lot.. i don wan u to think me as that way.. i'm not a flirt.. i'm jus more comfortable being friends wif guys than girls.. cos guys seems more loyal.. they won't betray u.. jus like how she did to me.. i don noe if i told u before.. cos there's too many things i told u le.. i always hate to hide things from u that's y i always tell u everything.. but there's one thing i never once told u.. cos that time we were ald not together.. if u noe about it, i guess u will really really really hate me n never want to see me again.. if u got heard from ur npcc friends, u would noe that thinesh was banned from coming back to sch.. want to noe who did it? it was me.. cos during the conference wif mr vasu, emmanuel talk on smoking n i remembered about a sec 1 complaining to me about it.. the sec one saw him n dwight smoking wif many ppl from our sch de.. so i decided to sae it.. but i didn't noe it will turn out like this.. that time, the first thing i think was u.. how will u react when u noe it was me who harm ur best friend.. would u hate me? i was so scared that they noe it was me n will beat me up.. all i noe is that, wad will u do if u noe.. would u still protect me n love me if we were still together.. will u hate me now? if u noe about it? i really don noe.. dion, i really love u a lot.. really really a lot.. cos i see u as a special guy.. cos u always told me the truth.. everything about u.. that time u told me about u.. actually, i was disgusted about it de n plus i don really noe wad is it about so i don care about it but after i noe, wad i really want is for u to get rid of that habit ba.. up till now i still don quite noe wad is it about.. but only noe it's a bad thing to do ba.. wad will u react if i tell u all this? i wanted to let u noe about my thoughts but i noe, even if u noe le, it won't change anything de.. all i wan is u, jus having u back is enough le.. 1 year of relationship can be forgotten so easily? i don believe.. the past that we had, is so terrible for u? dion, can u jus open ur heart again for me? one last time ba.. give us both another chance.. another chance to change everything.. but i noe, ur heart ald belong to her le.. 10.. seems to be my favourite number now.. if u still remember wad is it.. i wonder if u remember.. do u? maybe no ba..