Twelfth day= 1 week, 5 days.. it's soon goin to be two weeks le.. we haven been talking too.. is this really goin to end? jus like the world is ending in 2012? tsunami in Japan? i don wan to end it.. i can't bear to end this.. u noe how much i treasure this de.. i love u simply too much le.. till now, i would rather die then give u up.. u everything don noe de:( Ellene tried too.. but u jus replies don noe.. pls.. do u still love me? i see so many loving couples on the streets n everywhere i go.. i was once like them.. being cared n loved by my beloved bf but now? i'm jus a lonely soul that could only be envious of them.. i really miss u.. miss u like hell.. do u really hav no feelings for me le? i don dare to believe it.. cos it simply jus hurts.. it's jus like as thou someone take a gun n shoot me at my heart.. n at that moment, the only thing is to die.. can u feel that? i don think so ba.. u make me love u so much n in the end, u jus end it without me agreeing to it.. hav u ever wondered how i feel? previously, whenever i was out late, u would sent me home de.. now? no more le.. i got to be dependent of myself.. jus reach home.. but i bet u don noe ba.. y would u noe? u also don care le.. i miss u so much.. really really so much.. can u feel it? i promised to myself not to cry over u le.. but i jus can't do it.. listening to my blog song noe n think of u, i will jus start crying again.. u noe i really miss u, love u.. saw so many MI students jus now.. hoping that one of them might be u.. but also don wished that it was.. so i won;t noe how to faced u de.. but i jus wan a glimpse of u.. i wanna see how r u now.. should be more happier ba? if without me, u really can be more cheerful, more happy, i would let go de ba.. n jus keep that feelings of mine in my heart n never show it out anymore.. i won;t trouble u de.. jus let me continue loving u silently.. even u don love me le.. but jus let me be ba.. i finally understand this feeling le.. the feeling of loving someone secretly cos u noe that he don love u le..