This seems to be the only place that i could sae everything out without anyone knowing.. i shall keep myself super duper busy wif everything n not try to think.. it really hurts a lot.. knew u had class gathering this thursday.. enjoy urself ba.. since there is no one there for u to think of le.. i guess after thursday everyone of ur classmates will noe wad happened to us ba? for u, i really gave in a lot.. it's jus that u didn't realised.. i had to suffer from all those looks that ppl gave me.. those nasty things that they sae.. hav u ever considered my feelings? if u hav, u wouldn't jus go like that.. u would treasure me de.. i'm really really clueless of how should i carry on wif my life.. i really hope to jus drop dead.. i'm really breaking down le.. really breaking down any moment.. i can't sae out anything.. i can only bottle up all my feelings.. do u noe how difficult it is? 11.11, i will always wish for the same thing.. which is for u to sms me.. n it really some true.. imy.. really, really miss u.. so tempted to sms u.. how r u now? hope u hav recovered from ur injuries.. don fall sick.. take care n drink lots of water.. i really don noe wad's wrong wif me.. as i type this, my eyes is watery again.. can anyone save me? i feel so hopeless n useless.. i guess me n roy same fate liao lor.. but y is it that it's always the guy who is goin through everything but for me, i'm the one? it's really torturing.. actually, i don mind.. i don mind any hardship jus to be wif u...