I also wan to cheer up but i jus can't.. without u, my life doesn't seems to be a life that is worth living anymore.. spam u like hell but u also no reply de.. guess i should stop le ba? study? i will de, but without u, i just can't fully concentrate.. u were always there to cheer me up that time.. always there to listen to my troubles.. always there to give me ur advices.. always there to help me.. i feel so helpless now.. totally helpless.. my tears jus drop again.. i ald said i won't cry le.. but y does it drop down again? i'm really tired le.. i thought i could really forget all about u.. but i jus can't.. knowing u seems u hav brought happiness to my boring life n also bring a stop to my silent hp.. cos everyday i will hav a lot of smses waiting for me.. goodnight smses n many more.. but now? that phone is so dead.. really really dead.. can sae that the phone will only ring when the alarm goes off when it's time for me to wake up n go to sch.. other that then, it's dead de.. everytimes it ring i will look at it hoping that it is u but sometimes it's just an advertisement sms.. my feelings will then drop like no one will cares.. no one bother to take a look at me.. i'm invisible de.. until u look at me.. i feel so lucky.. i feel like i'm the world star that everyone is envious of cos i gotten myself a great bf.. a really good bf that who cares a lot for me.. forgive me whenever i'm in wrong.. cheer me up whenever i'm down.. hug me whenever he sent me home.. hold my hands whenever he noes that i'm feeling cold.. u were always there when i need u.. now, the suddenly gone of u had really drive me crazy.. that i'm really on the verge of breaking down/collapsing.. can u help me? help me to get back on my feet by coming back to me? losing u is like telling me to end my life.. it's torturing.. i rather end my life then lose u.. u were once so afraid to lose me but now? it's me who is trying to hold u to my side tightly n not let anyone hav u.. i'm so selfish right? i jus hate it when ur eyes r now looking at other girls instead of me.. that feeling really hurts.. once, it all belongs to me but now, it's not me but other girls.. the guy that once belongs to me is now belonged to others.. i guess i would rather end my life then see this coming.. cos i rather hav the memories that u belong to me then the memories that u belong to others.. i'm so selfish to wanting u alone for myself n i guess it really tire u out ba..
Boy , I Love You <3
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