A brand new day, a new start to begin wif.. I decided to stop thinking about u since that is wad u wished also.. i'm not sure whether i can do it or not but i still manage to get through todae.. maybe i will go through as each day passes.. who knows, slowly u will be out of my mind? i hope so.. u were just in my mind every single time that i got to force out a smile just to make sure i forget u, not to think of u.. i also not sure wad happened to me.. after i wake up from my sleep todae, i seems to forget all the past n only remember wad i hav done for the 3 days of life skills.. is this a good start? i really don wan to forget all the memories of us.. that's the only thing that can make me smile wholeheartedly.. A day without talking to u may be weird but i guess i should be able to get used to it soon.. maybe? i really don noe le.. maybe i should blame myself for falling too deep in le? but i noe that u r worth the feelings that i hav put in.. u r simply jus too awesome to be wif me, to choose me le.. u hav other better choice, but y me? but i should be glad? cos i'm ur first:) let's see, to me now, other than u, wad i can do is to focus on my studies:) MY AIM: TO GET 10 POINTS!! i'm sure i can do it de:) that's the way JAMIE!! somehow, i'm addicted to my blog song le~ but not forgetting, i really still hope for us to get back.. eventhough i noe it's impossible de.. maybe u r right, it's time for u to find that girl of urs who see inner heart de cos to u, wad i wan is only looks right? but hav u thought? if i really goes for looks, i would long ago break wif u le n won't be this sad now, crying all nights to sleep.. u should noe de, u were the one who sae u goes for looks.. maybe, i'm just not that good compared to the other girls.. i'm not pretty but i noe that i once used my heart to love u so deeply n all those feelings were real.. to me, looks is only second ba.. wad i'm looking for is someone who can understand me, care for me, treasure me, only hav eyes for me.. most importantly, love me like how i love him.. i'm the kind who once set my eyes on this particular guy n like him so much, it will be hard for me to notice other guys even if they hav good looks.. u should noe de.. i won't cry le.. cos i noe, no point crying over spilled milk de.. wad's mine, eventually will still be mine.. if it's destined not to be mine, no matter how i forced we will still end up unhappy de.. but get this clear, i will still be waiting for u to be once mine again.. even if it takes forever.. cos if u remember, u once told me that too, even if it takes forever u would still wan me de.. but i'm not sure about now.. i hate it when guys treat me well cos i feel veri uncomfortable.. only u, i feel so touched.. u really hold a veri important place in my heart.. remember the first time u sent me all the way home.. that really touched me.. guess u didn't noe ba.. this whole blog is now filled wif all the memories i had for u n my feelings towards u that u won't noe it anymore or can't be bothered le.. i guess i will hav to get used to having a silent phone le but i rather it be unless it rings wif all ur smses:)
Boy , I Love You <3
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